1.THE FIRST MEET ONLINE.

The date was 11 November 2019, and was just like a normal day indeed.

I had accepted a request for being a friend on instagram, of a stranger who was interested to end his life maybe.. I mean that account  actually had the username as life_ends001💁.

I was just eager to know who he/she was. There in that bio, it was mentioned that the user belonged to the same coaching institute as I did. And so we had a small conversation on texts. After few texts, I actually asked the user whether it's a boy or a girl, and so he turned out as a boy, and also my batchmate.The reason I was confused was he had more pictures of a girl on his profile than his own.And for your small kind interest, I would reveal you that the girl was his princess....!

We had little more than just a normal conversation that day. More than a normal because I usually had not preferred talking to a stranger too much funny stuffs and also, he was even my batchmate so I always felt a bit shy to talk to them so frankly. But it all just happened, as it was written to be.

His name, ABU AZBAR EQBAL. And he was so surprised to know that how could I know his name so perfectly. But what he didn't know was that, I was a bit unique girl..... OKAY..! that was a joke..LOL..!

He praised my writing skills, and so I did.We used to talk about our hobbies and interests and many more. We later on came to know a lot about each other.I used to scold him for his mistakes, he used to guide me even little things.Time rolled,and our laughs and cries brought us to a place, where we came in the criteria of friends which was called as ' BEST FRIENDS'...👫

2.THE FIRST LETTER TO ME...

 It was my birthday, after few days we started talking. Being called as a best friend, I found myself having a right to ask for a gift for me, and so I did.But trust me, it was just for fun.There wasn't any seriousness behind my words. 

And so I finally got my gift from him after a day of my birthday. This might not be surprising, but for me, it was. The gifts from him included 'A Brooch' , My all time favourite 'A Chocolate' and for me, the most special  'A Letter for his best friend (me)'.

That letter filled with emotions and words, in this world of digital gadgets , took my smiles to actually another level.  The words filled in it was carrying, few poems of his creation, and my constant smile. This creation started with just a word "DEAR LOLIII". Funny right? yes it is! our every conversations started with our pet names, we called each other.His was LOLAA 😂and mine was again LOLII..😆

By the way if you are eager to now what my name is,then.....

 Hi! I am ADITI. Also 2 years older than Mr. AB what I used to call him. Don't worry we have a lot more names for each other.

So now moving ahead, this was just the first letter I got from him. More to come soon.

This was just our destiny that brought us way more closer. We started writing poems and quotes which were dedicated to each other. We expressed our feelings in our writings and this catalysed our friendship to large extent.

I knew he was already in a relationship, and he knew that I too had a crush on a guy in our batch so ultimately, we both knew that we have not even a percent chance of ours being together...

But again Destiny craved for something different. His relations were not being so good with his princess and mine was a different case. I found myself struggling a lot for that guy and also AB helped me in doing so too, but it was high time I found no possibility of being even friend of that guy. And so I moved on too.

Time rolled and I started getting attracted to my best friend AB. But I too thought its not possible to be with him forever. I tried to control my feelings and many times I succeeded in this. But my lolaa friend never failed to win my heart again and again. 👫

3.DESTINY BROUGHT US TOGETHER.

He was just like a magic that happened to me. Yes you heard that right! we finally came into relationship. Okay, after lot of hints and efforts given by me, he was forced to propose me😂, and I was already ready to show tantarums that typically girls should be like.I remember his and my words too.

It was 9th of January 2019 and time 12:40 A.M. . That was a time we both had to communicate on text messages, or late night silent talks.So like a usual night, we were having a simple conversation of a well wasted day of our JEE exams. I was having my so friendly stomach ache who was not ready to leave me for even a minute. I think that was the only reason, AB was getting jealous of !😁He actually told me later that whenever I talked about any other random boy, he found it so uneasy to listen..Unexpected for me, it was!

So, After the line in that text proposal, I was like-" Did I just got proposed!!" and "Am I required to answer this now?"

That night was probably the most beautiful night I had till time.

That was our AZ-ADI💖 day. He himself changed his nickname to AZAAD and I did it as AZAADI.

After 9th of January, everything actually seemed so different to me.I was able to find him everywhere I wished to do. I too smiled seeing myself in the mirror. Whenever we met, he had a pleasurous aroma, I was also able to get his smell being at my home only.

These changes inside me was beautiful. I felt myself beautiful. His love, care, and affection for me cannot be defined by words indeed.

I remember, the moment, I saw him for the first time after becoming his 'Girlfriend', My heart just forgot how to be consistent in it's beats. It was beating like a drum😂💣.

But,you know what the irony is?

We were together in same coaching and same batch for approx 2 years,but till then he was just a stranger to me and so I was to him. But the time, we came together, the session ended and we had no more excuses left to see each other secretly in same classroom. But chances we still alive. Our tests blessed us to come together.

 We met, but only as just friends because of other people who knew us so well. We still managed to meet for just few minutes and that meant a lot for me, for us.So, from here, a series of letters started. We had no time to talk and so he wrote letters and handed me over when we just met to see each other's faces, that calmed our hearts more than anything.💓

4.STREAM OF SADNESS.

Like all other happiness, we too chose to be happy. We were able to find happiness in almost everything, but our fortune was not so happy with our happiness. Now, I'll not jumble you up in my words more. So after approx 3 months of our relationship, we started discovering a world of  tragedies and adventures in our upcoming life. On 27 of March 2019, Due to some reasons, mumma( His mother) knew about us, and it was not acceptable for her, that Azaadi should be together.💔

She talked to me and confessed me a lot to end this this relationship and move ahead in our in our life. There is no scope of togetherness of me and AB in future. But unlike her, ending this relationship was not acceptable for us. Leaving each other or forgetting our memories was not an option. I had almost lost my senses that day but AB was there for me, for us. He confessed me a lot and we finally decided to continue to be together; together till the upcoming forever. I was confessed and we continued with more care and attention. But, after that day , everything got changed for us. For approx 2 to 3 months we were not able not able to talk to each other, even no calls. But if any day, he got any chance to talk, he called me instantly at that time and that small conversation was just more than enough for us to spend few more days like this. Also, for the sake of spending a night well, he texted me a small paragraph of words, full of love, and wishes, so that we can sleep at night with  at least a little happiness. But this happiness was not able to to dominate the pain of heart, through which we both were suffering. Wetting pillows every night with the flowing pain from eyes was not a good option. So, we decided to be strong. We knew that a lot more problems has to come  ahead in our life, and so we should be strong enough to tackle every pain, to achieve our happiness again. 

It was only his love and affection that gave me strength.

That kept me alive.

5.A SHORT BUT SPECIAL JOURNEY.

The date was 26th of May 2019, A small letter to him..

Kaash wo ghadi ruk jaati us jagah jab

Tum mere saamne rahe or main tere...

Hmare rooh mil chuke the ek dusre se par,

Tum mujhse naa mil paae naa hi main tumse...

Tumne har lamha meri taraf dekha 

Har muskan pe mujhe apne paas bulaya..

Pr hmari badkismati ne hi to hame nhi milaya..

Khair...naa mil paane ka mujhe koi gham bhi naa thaa..

Tu saamne hr pal rahe aisa saath kisi se kam bhi naa thaa.. 

Jab raahein bichhad rahi thi wo ghadi yaad hogi tumhe

Tumne haath to nhi pakda tha pr aankhon se rok rkha tha mujhe..

Tere intezaar me tujhe jane kitne baar pukara thaa...

Dil ne teri tasweer ko bhi hazaron baar niharaa thaa...

Tujhe ek baar gale se lgaane ki chahat bhi thii.. 

Or Tujhse naa mil paane ki ek chhoti shikayat bhi thii..

Main fir bhi tujhse rooth k yuun door na reh ski..

Main ek lamha tere bagair bhi guzaar naa ski...

Main wadaa kartii hoon tujhse door naa rahungi

Main tujhse har roz har pal yuunhii pyaar karungii....

It was actually a very special day for both of us. We were travelling from our City Bihar to Kolkata for an exam. We were together in the same train but actually we were not! He was travelling with his parents and I was respectively with mine. It was just our fate, that we were in the same coach , so we had an opportunity  that we could see  each other's faces. Rather, my every moment's feeling is described in the the above written short poem for him.❣️

It was actually special because we saw each other after months. We were craving for that moment. Every second inside me, my heart was forcing me to go run and just hug him tight. But the situation was not allowing to do so..! 

Hard luck.!💔

It was a small but the largest( according to us) journey we had that day. My journey of a total of 7 hours and more  just passed by only staring at him. My smile was following his eyes. Whenever he got his eyes on me, I smiled automatically! 

That great magician had his great tricks.✨

6. THE DAY WE MET AGAIN

 On 27th of January, we had our first official date. But, again ,on 6th of June,2019, we again had our second special meet. We both were free from our every exam, and after so long, and too many excuses, our destinies were ready to bring us together again.It was so unprofessionally planned date indeed😜.

I instantly decided to go to my aunt's home for just no reason, but the thing that was surprising for me was, my parents too instantly accepted this.. At 9:00 A.M., I got ready and with my dad, I too departed from my home. He was going for his office and I asked him to drop me on the way. My cousin sister, Rushali, knew that I had planned to meet AB that day, and so she came on the half way with an intention to take me to her home. The intention was just for a purpose that our parents should not doubt on us. Rushali met me on the way and we were waiting for AB , by sitting in a park.The park was full of lovers only, seeing left, couples were kissing and doing lovy-dovy things, seeing on the right, a guy was on his feet with a flower in his hand proposing his girl💕.

I was watching these sort of things in reality, for the first time in my life. But this time, I was able to feel their emotions and feeling of happiness.But, that day my emotions were going out of my control. But more than me, my sister was eager to meet him. She continuously encouraged me to be calm because as I said, I was having mixed emotions of happiness and that excitement and that anger of his delay. We actually waited for him for more than 2 hours, just sitting below the shade of a huge tree of that super hot afternoon of June month's summer!.. After that, we decided to leave that place and then suddenly, he called! and finally my mind came to it's place. That wait of more than 3 months, was going to be over. He finally came there and yes! we met...💞

The happiness was showered on my face at the time of his arrival. I was sweating like hell, No! not because of him, it was just because that restaurant's Ac was dead. And I am a person who is so sensitive to environment's temperature.After coming from the park we were expecting some refreshing and cool surrounding, but it just not happened like that. By the way, he was with me and more than that, there was nothing more to expect later for me. He had his 4 more cousin brothers with him. I was so worried about the impression of mine in front of them. But being just as real as I am is my priority, and so I did. We had a great time together there.The time he arrived there to the time,we departed, I was not ready to leave his hands anyhow. We knew that we were not going to meet again for the next one year maybe.Yes, he was going to Delhi, for his studies as he decided to drop a year for betterment. It was so heartbreaking for me to realize this and therefore, when he was leaving that day, I was not able to control myself. And so then, tears came out of my eyes. He ran to me and just calmed me with a warm hug on that warm day. And this was how we had a great great greatly beautiful day.I know this sentence doesn't makes any sense at all, but you already know the feel of this. So cheers!👋

7. LOVE TRANFORMED ME.

 Love actually changes a lot of things, either the change is around us, or inside us. I too had those changes and it's not just me who is saying this. Many people who knew me very well, had told me that you've changed a lot. i was worried due to this but, they said that you have changed but positively! what did this mean ! I too asked . But they said that I have became a bit smarter than before and a girl with more power and love. I was satisfied then with myself. I too had observed that I have a lot more changes in my interests and many more things. I was actually a girl who whenever saw a cute random guy, I at that moment declared that guy as my crush of life. I was even able to dream about our life ahead. Whenever by mistake, any guy falls in love with me, I could not even stop praising myself for no reason. LOL!😂 And now, a time has come when I find no interest in replying a strange guy even a 'Hello'! 

Life had just changed it's way of flowing ultimately for me. It became more intersting to discover, to enjoy , to praise and many things. Or I can say that reason for living the life has changed. And that reason for me surely is AB. I want to live for him, I want to laugh for him. The fact is that I want to live and spend the rest of my life with only him.❤️

But, the situation we were going through that time was so hard. I almost cried every night I went to sleep. He was going so far from me and my heart was not ready to accept this thing. Then after few days, something happened and I too decided to drop a year and so I moved to kota after a week. I knew we were not together at same place, but I just knew that we both needed each other through the journey. I moved to a hostel and so he did. The moment our respective parents departed from hostel, we called each other and talked like that call would never come again. We usually after then talked for so long everyday and because of only him, it became so easy for me to spend those lonely days in kota. I had no one to talk there. A strange city with strange people. 🥺

Later few days I found a silly girl named Isha. She later became like a friend whom I would never chose to lose anyhow. She was just like me, even more silly. We both had almost everything similar. From favourite actress to favourite food and interests were too same. I could not have got any better friend there or in my life ever. We just made the life full fun to live. Everybody praised our togetherness. Our mischievious acts were discussed by everybody there. We had our best time there together within just few months.🥰

I really got two beautiful gems in my life indeed. Firstly, it's AB and secondly that idiot came, Isha..! I just love both of them..❣️

8. OUR SPECIALS..

 After few months, it was his birthday. 19th August. And I don't think anybody was more happier than me.I knew that I was not capable of doing anything special for him on that special day. Still I was happy, because for him to be happy, it was important for us that we both should be happy.🤗

I made a short slideshow video of our journey till the time. I put some quotes and some lovely messages for him. It was nothing like a gift, but according to him, it was very special. 🥰

It's 17th of August 2020 today, and still I have no plan to celebrate his birthday. Even I am not able to make this day again special for him. I know this might not affect him but for me it does. The goods and all the deeds he did for me cannot be defined in words and even I cannot pay him back this much love. On the other side he made my birthday as the most special day of my life. That day he just did not care about the security of his hostel and came to Kota from Delhi itself just to make my day a little bit more special and beautiful.  But he doesn't know the truth. He actually made that day epic for me. I can proudly say that I can't have more beautiful day than my birthday of the year 2019 till now. I believe that I have never got so much love and care from anyone, that I get from AB everyday. I always try to love him more but, unfortunately, he wins! he loves me more till the end of the day.😘

There's nothing like that we've never had fights. We actually fought like hell and those too on texts. We never had argued a lot on calls. But the power of texting is of another level. We usually don't fight or argue too many things on phone calls because we both have a sort of respect for each other during talking. But unfortunately, when on text, I too just said anything that could catalyse the anger or the heartbreaks. Those nights too were so hard to survive for me. I cried, screamed and just hated everything that I have, or just hated myself. 🥺

But at the end of everything there was love, there is love, and will be forever that is there to heal every wound we get. Our love never let us down anytime. Everything just sorted out anyhow beacuse our love was more dominating than those dirty small fights.🥺

He strenthened me always. He encouraged me everyday. He guided me at every step. He loved me every second.🥰 

I wish that god to make me at least this much capable, that I could love him more than the limit that he expect. Beyond every limits. Till eternity..!🦋

9. I LOVE YOU THE MOST!

 Life gives us lots of good memories and some bad ones too. We too had them equally. Once, he was insisting too much to meet me but, I consistently tried to persuade him that this might create problem if anyone from our home would know the truth. After then, he understood my concern and did not argue a lot. 

Few weeks later, I got bitten by a mosquito and dengue happened to me🤣.Yes it Happened!.My inglish has the power to kill you.. okay.. I was then hospitalised and during my treatment, Azuu was so depressed and worried even more than me. He cried everytime, he thought about me. I was too worried for him at that time. And due to some reasons, I had to go back to my home. I felt so guilty to leave him alone there. He actually had everyone out there still, no one to talk and share his feelings.

But we did video calls everyday even I was at home. That was the only support that kept us happy and alive. As the time passed, everything got normal and habitual to us. The time came, I was recovered finally, and got back to kota. We then continued like before. But this time, he was even more concerned for me everytime. And sometimes, overconcerned!😂 The days spent with him is still the best memories I can have. We have already completed 19 months of a beautiful journey and yet more to come.

I remember our first year anniversary had not been so much special for us because his parents was with him that time but, yet it was so special just by feeling that day. I parceled  him few gifts that contained some love and a shirt. I, for the first time in my life had bought a shirt for a boy. I was even so confused about sizes and all, but keeping calm, I just not thought about this a lot and bought it, and fortunately that almost fitted him. He after then, sent me a huge panda for me which I loved the most! okay, less than Azuu. But yes that panda teddy became just like our first son indeed.😅We have a lot more memories of us but, I am not able to write everything here.

SO, It's his birthday tomorrow and I have written these all for only him! I also wish, that these 9 posts would bring a large smile on his face, and as he knows what the number '9' matters to us.So here you go!

This digital media has always played a major role in connecting us. And today, I have nothing to do for him rather than preparing this small gift for him .I wish my message of extreme love for him is conveyed through this. I wish that this would be enough of my try to make him happy and to make this day a bit more special for him.

I promise I will love you everyday with an extra effort to keep you happy.

I loved you the most. I STILL LOVE YOU THE MOST AZUU AND WILL DO FOREVER!!💞